Zovem te krikom, gubim glas...

ENG: I spent the roughest couple of days. This Saturday, my Grandmother almost died. I was driving home from work when I received a phone call from my Mum, telling me what happened. My Grandmother got very sick, all of a sudden, she had a massive heart attack. I felt like my whole world was crumbling down and I wished so badly that what I was hearing wasn't really true!
Sunday, my hubby and I rushed in the hospital to see her. She seemed very weak, but better...but then, she started having another crisis, and we were asked to leave the room.
Her doctor told us that she could die. They're doing everything possible to save her, and she managed to get out of the crisis. But now she's on a slow way to recovery. I'm worrying sick about possible complications (older people take longer to recover, and sometimes they can develop complications...). I tried to keep myself busy by cleaning my house like crazy and doing long walks with my dog. The highlight of this week was when my Granny actually phoned me and I heard her voice being a bit better, not so tired and out of breath as it was a few days ago.

I will be staying in my hometown for some period because I want to stay as close to my Granny as possible and visit her in the hospital every day. She's like a second Mum to me, and although she's almost 84 and have lived a long life, it's never the right time to say goodbye forever to your loved ones. I'm not prepared on loosing her just yet. I know she's a fighter, and has the biggest wish lo live...as she said, at least one more Christmas with us.

I don't know how often will I manage to post during the next week, but I'll try to upload some outfit photos that I already have ready :-) I truly love you all for being here & showing your support!

HR: Prolazim kroz jako tesko razdoblje u mom zivotu. Zadnjih par dana bili su nocna mora. Proslu subotu, dok sam se vozila s posla kasno navecer, dobila sam telefonski poziv od moje mame, u kojem mi je rekla da je mojoj baki jako pozlilo i da su morali zvati hitnu pomoc. Moja baka imala je teski srcani infarkt. Tu noc radili su joj koronarografiju i spasili zivot.
Muz i ja pohitali smo u Rijeku vec iduce jutro, kako bi baku posjetili u bolnici.
Zatekli smo ju u bolnickom krevetu, vrlo slabasnu, ali doimala se bolje. Tijekom nase posjete imala je jos jednu veliku krizu, lijecnici su nas zamolili da napustimo sobu dok su joj ubrzano nastojali pomoci i spasiti zivot. Tada nas je doktor izvjestio da je bakino stanje tesko i da bi mogla umrijeti. Cijeli moj svijet srusio se u tom trenutku. Zeljela sam svim srcem da ovo sto prozivljavam nije stvarnost. Nakon sati neizvjesnosti, baka je ipak izasla iz krize i stanje joj se stabiliziralo.
Sada je pred njom dugi oporavak, kojeg se bojim jer starijim ljudima teze se oporaviti, a moguce su i komplikacije.
Ovih dana, briga me izgrizala iznutra. Nastojala sam se okupirati ciscenjem kuce i setnjama sa psom, ali nista nije pomagalo...

Najsvjetlija tocka tjedna bila je kada me je jucer baka nazvala na mobitel! Cula sam njezin glas, koji je zvucao snaznije i vedrije, na putu oporavka. Poljubila sam telefon nakon razgovora sa njom.

Boraviti cu neko vrijeme u svojem rodnom gradu jer zelim biti sto blize baki i posjecivati je dnevno u bolnici. Ona je za mene druga mama i iako ce ove godine navrsiti 84 godine i prozivjela je svoj zivot, nikada nije pravo vrijeme za pozdraviti se zauvijek sa svojim najmilijima, neovisno o tome koliko oni godina imali. Zivot se okrene u jednom trenutku, a ponekad nismo ni svjesni prolaska vremena i ogranicenosti vremena koje nam je dano da ga prozivimo na ovom svijetu...sve dok se tako nesto alarmantno ne desi. Ja znam da je moja baka snazna zena, borac i da ima veliku zelju za zivotom...rekla nam je da zeli sa nama docekati bar jos jedan Bozic.

Ne znam koliko ce cesto ici outfit postovi u iducih tjedan dana, nastojati cu ipak objaviti par postova koje imam vec pripremljene :-) Volim vas svih!

Outfit info:

DRESS: Second hand shop in Italy
FUZZY VEST: H&M
TIGHTS: H&M
BOOTS: Coolway ("The Vampire Diaries" collection, "Love Sucks")
BAG: Zara
NECKLACE: Pull & Bear
BRACELET: Soufeel
WATCH: JORD, mod. "Sully" in Natural Green 
SUNGLASSES: Firmoo

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